my heart

>b4 tis i olwes tel myself tat try n must follow the 5 step tat i learn from my teacher when v met sum1...
>tis time i though tat i can do it...bt....finally i fail....
>i olwes n olwes remind myself tat the 5 step is
1. meet each other
2. know each other
3. admire each other
4. like each other
5. finally, love each other...
>i olwes remind myself tat i will do anything js 2 make her n me 2 noe each other then i will let my luck 2 dy god...
>watever dy result i gt i will accept n it is js a process wen i meet sum1....
>bt...finally i noe i m a lie....
>bcos...my heart is lossing controll 2 miss sum1...wenever i sleep, i work, i run, i sit, i hapy, i sad....n wen i c her...
>my heart automaticlly fullfill by dy shadow of sum1.....tat make me can controll myself 2 miss her.....
>bt...nw i nit 2 stop it...bt tis nt hurt....
>wat make me feel hard n really hurt is...i nit 2 pull of the shadow inside my heart...
>n it sketch up my little heart....
>love o like make ppl feel lossing...bcos...it is a dual channel communication....
>nw...i still do noe wat dy reaction tat i should hav...i js try make myself 2 be a pretender.............................................of anything...
>but...i oredy noe tat nt much ppl will accept n admire dy stlye like me....maybe...i nit time 2 prove it...bt...it oso nit dy rite 1 2 waiting 4 me n giving me tat time....

when a superman is down.....

>yesterday nite.......is a longest nite....
>even tat my eyes is close....bt my ears still can hear a sound tat come from my heart........
>it is like a broken sound.......n feel a bit hurt.......
>even tat i m lay on dy bed.....bt my nose still can smell dy smell tat cun from my heart......js masam as dy cuka.....
>even i m trying 2 sleep 4 whole nite...bt my mind js like dy standby CPU tat always run dy data inside it.....
>bt...dy CPU is out of my control....it js run dy data tat make me feel sad...disappoint....tired...n finally i loss my way.....
>even my body is tired n tired.....bt it is dun wanna go 2 sleep.....whole nite my body js feel cold...
>wat happen 2 me?????i m nt bcos tension of study...tension of test....everything tat is nt important....bt wat i care...wat i hope n wat i wish....is nt bcum truth anymor.....
>tis make me feel loss.....lost in a big jungle without dy compass......
>i noe no 1 is 100% perfect...n me 2.....i m oso a human tat nit dy caring...........................................................................................................................................................
>maybe....tis is my weakness....i js hope tat the care from dy ppl tat i focus....so wen it is not happen then...i will bcum problem...my feeling will cum out......
>bt all tis happen js bcos of 1 ppl........1 ppl tat i oredy cant delete in my mind.....
>js like song tat sing by Jay chou.......(the longest movie)..............i oso nit 2 minute 2 freeze out my mind so tat "air muka" js freeze in mind......................................
>now........i m listening 2 tat song......maybe i nit 2 learn from the lyrics......looking 4 u n try 2 4gt u.................................................................................................................................................................
>if u listen 2 dy lyrics....u will noe wat is dy meaning 4 2nd sentences of lyrics.......i oso hav 1 present tat do noe hw 2 giv 2 u...............................................
>writen by a tired n tired person............sad in heart...disappoint at face.....n feel loss in mind......