A Secret A Story That Can't Say

time is pass

2008-03-28T19:12:00.002+08:00

>day n day
>time by time
>js pass like tis...
>bt,,,tis sem....i find a group of friend tat can fun n play 2gether...
>maybe....i spend a lot of money in playing...bt i though tat it is valueable...
>cos it giv me a lot of memories...
>bt now i gt feel tat...sumthing will go far away from me....
>difficult 2 say.....
>reali......
>bt i gt a problem in my heart 2.....i nit 2 settle it...after final...

what is we need??

2008-03-17T11:47:00.002+08:00

>may be eveyone will say tat.....nw we are in university...syudy...is wat v should do...
>bt...beside tat???wat else is inside our life????
>in my opinion....i dun wan my memories js only have study, study n study....then wat else??
>i dun wanna 2 be regret wen i m graduate....
>then....beside study wat is important???
>friend???activity????lover???games????or money????
>i think nw mant ppl will say friend o money is important...bt money is not in my consider...
>i think dy money will not cum like tat..bt wen v r working after university then we will find it..
>i think love is important....it make ppl learn...i make ppl think...it make ppl grown up...it make ppl felt out...it make ppl happy...it make ppl sad...it make ppl nonsense..
>bt....love js like a sea...as deep as dy pacific ocean.....once we are decided 2 swim...then u must have enough energy 2 find out the treasure in the ocean...an find out the keys...2 open out the door which is locked by inside...
>may be now i m confused...nw i m still thinking.....i m stll finding....i m still..................
>i won js let it go like this.....i will at least getting 1 ending 4 this longest story......even though, the even will be the sad ending...
>bt at least i try it...i say out wat is inside my heart....
>buddha bless me.........

my heart

2008-02-24T16:54:00.000+08:00

>b4 tis i olwes tel myself tat try n must follow the 5 step tat i learn from my teacher when v met sum1...
>tis time i though tat i can do it...bt....finally i fail....
>i olwes n olwes remind myself tat the 5 step is
1. meet each other
2. know each other
3. admire each other
4. like each other
5. finally, love each other...
>i olwes remind myself tat i will do anything js 2 make her n me 2 noe each other then i will let my luck 2 dy god...
>watever dy result i gt i will accept n it is js a process wen i meet sum1....
>bt...finally i noe i m a lie....
>bcos...my heart is lossing controll 2 miss sum1...wenever i sleep, i work, i run, i sit, i hapy, i sad....n wen i c her...
>my heart automaticlly fullfill by dy shadow of sum1.....tat make me can controll myself 2 miss her.....
>bt...nw i nit 2 stop it...bt tis nt hurt....
>wat make me feel hard n really hurt is...i nit 2 pull of the shadow inside my heart...
>n it sketch up my little heart....
>love o like make ppl feel lossing...bcos...it is a dual channel communication....
>nw...i still do noe wat dy reaction tat i should hav...i js try make myself 2 be a pretender.............................................of anything...
>but...i oredy noe tat nt much ppl will accept n admire dy stlye like me....maybe...i nit time 2 prove it...bt...it oso nit dy rite 1 2 waiting 4 me n giving me tat time....

when a superman is down.....

2008-02-19T09:01:00.002+08:00

>yesterday nite.......is a longest nite....
>even tat my eyes is close....bt my ears still can hear a sound tat come from my heart........
>it is like a broken sound.......n feel a bit hurt.......
>even tat i m lay on dy bed.....bt my nose still can smell dy smell tat cun from my heart......js masam as dy cuka.....
>even i m trying 2 sleep 4 whole nite...bt my mind js like dy standby CPU tat always run dy data inside it.....
>bt...dy CPU is out of my control....it js run dy data tat make me feel sad...disappoint....tired...n finally i loss my way.....
>even my body is tired n tired.....bt it is dun wanna go 2 sleep.....whole nite my body js feel cold...
>wat happen 2 me?????i m nt bcos tension of study...tension of test....everything tat is nt important....bt wat i care...wat i hope n wat i wish....is nt bcum truth anymor.....
>tis make me feel loss.....lost in a big jungle without dy compass......
>i noe no 1 is 100% perfect...n me 2.....i m oso a human tat nit dy caring...........................................................................................................................................................
>maybe....tis is my weakness....i js hope tat the care from dy ppl tat i focus....so wen it is not happen then...i will bcum problem...my feeling will cum out......
>bt all tis happen js bcos of 1 ppl........1 ppl tat i oredy cant delete in my mind.....
>js like song tat sing by Jay chou.......(the longest movie)..............i oso nit 2 minute 2 freeze out my mind so tat "air muka" js freeze in mind......................................
>now........i m listening 2 tat song......maybe i nit 2 learn from the lyrics......looking 4 u n try 2 4gt u.................................................................................................................................................................
>if u listen 2 dy lyrics....u will noe wat is dy meaning 4 2nd sentences of lyrics.......i oso hav 1 present tat do noe hw 2 giv 2 u...............................................
>writen by a tired n tired person............sad in heart...disappoint at face.....n feel loss in mind......

My First Blog.............................

2008-01-07T08:35:00.000+08:00

em...........
>mys blog title is "A Secret A Story That Can't Say".....
>so, i m still consider what should i write inside this blog....
>it is because this blog will be reading by the whole "world"......
>in my opinion or in my mind set......the blog is a place to write down our own secret and just can view by friends......
>but now,what i write will be opening to the anyone.......
>wow........ha ha....
>even though, i will also try to change my mind set about this blog...
>so that,i can write something that is really relative with this blog's title......
>so....i wish my friend or whose are reading my blog have a nice day.....and have a sweet dream....
****may be, you will feel strange why i write sweet dream at the last of this blog....you will know it in the coming blog......